I'm an idiot I wanted it to be another reason but I knew it was that he's not as interested as I think he is .. or as he claims to be .. So now I just stupid like always .. Stupid and rejected .. I don't want anyone to like me or love me .. I already have enough anxieties and things that make me feel inferior and horrible.. I don't wanna like anyone I just want to be alone completely and I wanna be okay with being alone .. My chest aches now because of everything.. I just keep overthinking and feeling bad about myself.. What's the point of everything