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I was so close i was doing so good and now im back in that dark space i finally took a shower today the first real one in 3 weeks and not just using dry shampoo but then i came to my closet and now im sitting on the floor and i cant motivate myself to get dressed or move and that pill bottle is calling my name and i just give up . I finally got to a place where i was good and now i cant move and ive cried for help and today i gave signs to my mom and she called me passive aggressive and im just done i give up and i ready to just leave because this pain hurts more than ever and i cant fight im sorry little nanny for letting you down .