It's complicated. I feel like there's no purpose in my life. All of my friends are toxic and I don't have anyone to share my feelings with. My parents are counting on me and I don't wanna disappoint them. I even can't focus on anything cause my mind is full of negative thoughts. I don't know who I am anymore, I don't know whether I'm on the right track. I feel really heavy in my heart and it's hard to explain.