i just really want my life to go back to normal, i need everything to just start working out now because it all just hurts so much right now. i wanna come back here in a month and be able to say things are improving and im not drowning in my sadness. it feels so pathetic because i always tell myself it will get better and i just have to wait, or ill have random outbursts of energy, and ill feel the sudden need to clean my room and go out, and then the rest of the time I'm just sad. Everybody is saying wait and it will be worth it, but ive been waiting for over a year. when does it honestly get better, when do things start to get better and when do i feel happy. i wanna know what genuine happiness feels like because i haven't had that since I was about 8. I wish i could go back in time and pinpoint where it was starting to get bad and stop myself, because before i thought it was hard but i never knew it would get this bad.

i just really want my life to go back to normal, i need everything to just start working out now because it all just hurts so much right now. i wanna come back here in a month and be able to say things are improving and im not drowning in my sadness. it feels so pathetic because i always tell myself it will get better and i just have to wait, or ill have random outbursts of energy, and ill feel the sudden need to clean my room and go out, and then the rest of the time I'm just sad. Everybody is saying wait and it will be worth it, but ive been waiting for over a year. when does it honestly get better, when do things start to get better and when do i feel happy. i wanna know what genuine happiness feels like because i haven't had that since I was about 8. I wish i could go back in time and pinpoint where it was starting to get bad and stop myself, because before i thought it was hard but i never knew it would get this bad.

I'll tell you the same thing I did to your mother. First time was free,Second time, you've made your point. Now, suck it up like a big girl.Learn from it, grow from it. But a victim, YOU ARE NOT.

I'll tell you the same thing I did to your mother.First time was free,Second time, you've made your point.Now, suck it up like a big girl.Learn from it, grow from it.But a victim, YOU ARE NOT. 