I recently lost my reason to live. I had two wonderful horses who meant the world to me, and like that they were gone. I make so many mistakes and I can’t figure out how other people do it. I talk a lot, laugh a lot, and have a lot of ‘friends’ to keep people from asking me if anything’s wrong, but I lost the will to even look them in the eye anymore. I just wanna go see my boys, I don’t really wanna die, I just don’t wanna live. I’d give anything to say goodbye to them.