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life is leaving my body. my will to live is slowly going down. the light in me is dying.

i am low again yet smiling like everything is fine.

being there for people who wont do the same for me. telling them life is worth living and at the same time trying to find something to live for.

no one sees me. no one sees my struggling.

i didnt let them . when i did they never did anything to help me. i was too complicated for them as they said.

will this emptiness ever fade?

i am fine sometimes but always have this feeling like something is missing.

i am not even sure if i am ready to feel fine again. not ready to have that light in me again.

i cant trust anyone anymore.

i know what i want for future but its so foggy.

i dont know anything anymore