I have decided that I am going to pay someone to kill me.
There’s two reason why I won’t do it myself; first I’m afraid I might screw the attempt up and leave myself in a vegetable type state or something, and secondly...I am admittedly just too much of coward to do it myself. People say that suicide is the “cowards way out”...I disagree with that; it takes a lot of balls to cut, shoot, or jump off off a building to end your life.
I’m not going to cry and whine about the events which brought on this decision. All I can say...it that I really...REALLY deserve to die. Life would be so much better for a lot of people if I were just...gone.