i'm at the point of my life where i have lost everyone i have ever been close with and it was my fault, it seems as if i can barely breathe and i have lost hope. i'm no longer happy and i can't explain what caused it, maybe i caused it for being afraid of change? i wish i let people help me now i'm here alone with my corrupted thoughts, i am my own enemy. i let myself get this bad, i let myself fall into this mess and now i can't get myself out, i hate hurting myself but my body does it anyway. if you are reading this, please don't pity me and don't let yourself get this far. stay away of your past and don't dwell on it like i have. please don't ever use other people to feel that void in your heart for that special someone. don't be like me.