i dont have a mum or a dad i live with my auntie and my cousin im only 13 and i cant take it ive been getting bullied for 10 years and cyber bullied and top off that i scream and break things and idk know why i just want it to stop i get isolated at skl and at home i feel like im diffrent and i hate giving my auntie stress but its so hard so i keep my feelings inside my uncle died off suicide and ive recently started thinking off how life would be if im gone i get called no wonder why u dont have friends my mum comes and goes shes an acholic who left us my dad dosent even know i exist and i just feel sad and hopeless i tried to make the feelings and the thoughts go away but i cant i need seriosu help and i dont know if i can carry on living cause i might do something and break this family apart and i dont want to i just want it all to stop i hate going skl and i hate getting screamed at homemy auntie had a rough back story which will almost make u cry so i understand her but i dont think i can carry this on she says "i dont know if u can stay here i dont want u living here" so i think to myself am i really that bad no wonder why these girls and boys bully me i just want my mum i want and i need help im breaking apart i have self harmed before i have told my family i am gonna kill myself.. but they think im joking i normally run and slam the doors and go for walks but i cant breathe i feel trapped i had said something to my auntie recently that i regret so much but i couldnt hold my tounge i couldnt take everything i called her a bitch and swore in her face and broke the banister and toilet light it was like someone else locked me away and did all that then as soon i shut the door im back to my old self