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13 and wishing to die...

Hi this is my story.

I am thirteen and I’ve never been happy with life my parents divorced when I was 5 and my dads girlfriend died a long painfull death of cancer on my birthday when I was 8


weve never addressed it and I keep all my thoughts I’m my head and it’s making me crazy. I’m pretty sure my dad has a disorder where he can’t show emotions bc we aren’t close and my sister who is 18 doesn’t see him anymore because he cheated on my mum and his dying girlfriend with multiple ppl he’s basically a shit person


for some odd reason I still see him even though I hate him he makes me so deprived of happiness and I hate him.


school is a whole different story it has given me panick attacks and sometimes I’ve thrown up It makes me want to kill myself


this is the only place I thought would be ok to adress this stuff nobody cares about me and I feel extremely alone I self harm and sometimes just punch and smash my head into the wall multiple times a day and cut . I don’t know why I’m so depressed I just am the world is just so toxic and I feel as if there is nothing good in my way in the future I’ll probably end up dead


because I want to kill myself as I think it is the only way out I don’t give a shit if it makes my family sad I hate living I hate living so much but I don’t know how to do it I want it to be quick


but yeah that’s my story I know it’s pretty boring I don’t think I’ll be a live much longer ... goodbye

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Re: 13 and wishing to die...

I’m the girl.I know my future might be good but I don’t think I can handle these feelings for much longer it’s getting worse and worse and I just want to get rid of them . So u think I might just get it over and done with but I want to be certain it will kill me and I don’t want to have to be in hospital in a coma I just want it to be easy and quick with not much pain

I’m the girl.I know my future might be good but I don’t think I can handle these feelings for much longer it’s getting worse and worse and I just want to get rid of them . So u think I might just get it over and done with but I want to be certain it will kill me and I don’t want to have to be in hospital in a coma I just want it to be easy and quick with not much pain

Sweetie I endured much worse than you. I promise you if you just learn to fight off those feelings in your early 20’s it will change. You will start enjoying life & realize how great it is.

I felt like you. Even tried to kill myself. Then I’m my early 20’s I suddenly felt awesome. Had many great yrs.

I’m old now. Heading towards my natural death. But glad I stuck it out. I’ve had a great life.

Watch Comedies. Sing. Dance. Put up Christmas lights yr round. Find little joys in this world. Go outside & draw pictures of plants & stuff. Being alive is a miracle. It doesn’t last long. Don’t throw it away.

Look up Tyler Trent; Purdue super fan on YouTube. He’s one of my hero’s. Start watching stuff like sports. Cheer. Cuss. Have fun.

You have to find joy in this world. It’s all around us. Tyler got that.

Hi.

Same story here sorta.

I advise telling your friends or anyone who cares about you. Maybe your sister? There is this thing called childline who are part of the NSPCC. You can phone or text them whenever you want. They are open 24/7. Here is their number: 0800 1111 . If you type childline into google then you’ll be able to get to their website. I’ve used them before. If you are really in need then they can send someone to help you. I advise reading their confidentiality policy before using them though.

Hope your situation gets better :) xx