I hate my job. I'm sure I'm not the only one. Going on a decade of going around in circles in a bureaucratic slow dance and territorial tiptoeing as a consultant whose agency's contract is always under threat of not being renewed by a large client that has agencies do all of its work. Years of no growth in the contracts yet the clients bitch about the level of service they're not getting because at the end of the day they're not willing to pay for it. I also have to deal with my agency's management that makes no capital investment in staffing and believes more administrative busy work is how you show value. I know I should leave but this position pays more than others and I have a family to support. I have tried to leave but things always seem to fall through leaving me more than disappointed. But my family deserves more than angry, bitter dad/husband so I will find a new job in 2021.