I wonder what would actually happen after I die. I don't really care, I am not even going to make it to 18 at this point. It's not going easy. I wonder who would say they knew I felt this way, but didn't do anything. Nobody ever does anything. I am so hungry. I didn't eat today because I did not want to go downstairs where my parent's friends are and Im starving. Im really hungry. Im gunna cry. My hands are shaking. I want to fall asleep and never wake up again. Or just to feel anything. My parent's don't care about my art. Im not mentally stable. I have too many thoughts in my head and I have tics but my parent's don't care. I want to live in a world with people from video games, and I wanna be taken away forever. Im gunna cry. Im so tierd but the man always stands near my door every night. I dont like him. He keeps me up at night. And hes weird. Im hungry. Im hungry. I want to talk with my friend but he never replies and I wait for him and he never replies. I hate myself. I want to die, and I dont fear death, I fear pain. Pain is scary. Masochists must be super brave. Im not. My parents always misgender me because im non binary and they always call me my dead name and the wrong gender and I hate it. Im so hungry. Im so tierd. Im so alone.HungryHungryHungryTierdTierdTierdAloneAloneAlone