i cant get diagnosed professionally because i dont want to worry my family even though they know a little bit about my struggle with my mental health. and ive always been too scared and felt selfish for self diagnosing, so i dont. im worried that if i get diagnosed and start taking antidepressants, i'll do something with them to hurt myself. ive always felt insecure and not enough, but 2016 took a big toll on me. its only been four years but a lot has changed and i think im getting better. im definitely still struggling, but i think im just getting better at hiding it. im fifteen and too many young teenagers feel heavy burden in their lives. almost all my friends have it hard already and yet we're expected to act perfect and get good grades