A confession to the past

When I was young, really young. I fantasized about fucking my moms best friend. I would jerk off for Lou as many times a day as I could during the summer. I stashed multiple pictures of her in my room and would fantasize about her about every night before I went to sleep and usually one of the first things I did in the morning was think about what it would be like to wake up next to Lou, suck her tits lick her pussy and fuck her.

this was when I was about 8 and it continued through the years. By the time I had made it to high school I had spent time with her and continued to remain silent as I listed more and more.

when I entered the military I paid many visits to whorehouses. And in order to make it through those visits I paid for whores who were similar to Lou. I closed my eyes and imagined what it would be like fucking Lou while got my rocks off with a whore.

i nearly told her one night after I returned home from the military. But never did.

as a youngster I would see Lou wearing shorts and a tank top for my fantasy and would imagine she met me at the door told me to pull her,shorts down and lick her pussy. The. She would take me into the bedroom and fuck me multiple times.

later on when I married I ultimately told the wonderful woman who I married about my fantasy. It happened one night when we were fucking and I screamed Lou as I started to cum. When the initial shock wore off and she told me what I had done I was apologetic. It took her a few days but suddenly out of nowhere she said to me one night fuck me like you would Lou. Eat my pussy little boy she said as she Took over playing Lou. Soon we would play little boy every once in a while. One night my wife allowed me to tell her while she played Lou how I felt and what I wanted to do. This continued for many years. Now that I am a widower and alone again and while Lou has been gone for many years. I still find myself going back in time.

just wanted to get that off my chest.