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6 months ago

A storm of emotions

I am filled with so much rage I can barely control. I have learned to live with it and avoid situations that would make me angry, but it's always there; deep down, waiting to release itself. Between the fear that I could lash out and hurt someone - physically or emotionally, and fear that they would hurt or abandon me, I am unable to bond with another person beyond small talk and common courtesies. Out of loneliness, I have developed a subconscious ego that tells me I don't need anyone else, which has given me a sort of arrogance and self reliance that can cloud my judgement and fuel my anger against anyone who gets in my way, yet the fear of losing control stops me from achieving my goals.