Childhood Trauma

Ages 1-4 watch my mom get abused. Ages 4-8 I was neglected. Ages 5-11 I was abused. Age 12 I was almost raped.Ages 6-12 I was bullied. Age 5 my abuser made me watch a horror movie then a video of a woman giving birth. Age 5 I was forced to watch a video of how chicken nuggets are made (yes and the part were they kill it). Age 11 I was shoved against a tree and cussed out. Ages 11-12 20+ suicide attempts. Ages 6-10 CPS cases. That's all I remember as of now, have a great day/night!