I spent almost four years of my life in the most one sided psychologically and mentally abusive relationship, begging to be loved holding it together with all my strength.

Since our break up he begged for another chance, I now know he was already in a new relationship with a girl with the same name who even looks similar and has automatically done all the things I begged for. I understand why and I don’t want him back at all but I need to vent on how hurtful this still is for me when it crosses my mind.