i think struggle with escapism. i submerse myself into fictional worlds because this world sucks. i want nothing more then to join the world i make up in my head and add on to every day. i dont want to be an average student, average looks, average intelligence, average athletics in an average town. i want to be more than what i am. i feel as if i disappoint people a lot. but if i were the hero of the story that wouldnt happen. everyone would be proud of me. where as now when i stay in my room all day, leaving for asic needs, if i was cool or talented i could save the world or something.just a thought.