I don’t know where to begin?.. my head is full of so many things but it’s got to a point where I don’t even know what’s going on in there. Everyday my mind, my body, my emotions are telling me to just do it, go ahead no one will notice no one will care no one will stop you but I don’t want to I’m scared every day for my live cos I know one day I won’t be able to cope. Every day is a struggle and I’m slowly letting go and I don’t know what to do any more. I take my pain out on my self cos I feel like everything is my fault. Talking to people don’t help. I have to hide my emotions every day but deep down when I get one chance to my self my eyes flood with tears and I don’t know any more if I should give in to the voices cos it’s to much for me to cope with I’m 19 and I have no life ahead of me I feel like I disappoint every one I meet. I just need something any thing to hang on to cos I have no grip and I’m only going to end up going down..