I hate myself, TW: Su!c!de

I am a 13 year old female and I'm tried of fighting I'm tried of being yelled at because I'm different. I've been slapped because I said jesus christ and my moms Christian I've been yelled at as I have a mental breakdown. I want to run away I want to kill myself. I'm on medication and I still and depressed. And what do I do when I say to leave me alone or not to touch me? I get screamed at, slapped, etc. Me and my mom got in an argument and I said I wanted her to leave me alone she has now decided to leave me to rot basically, she doesn't care what I do, she'll not wake me for school anymore because alarms cant wake me. And I dont have the right mindset to apologize because right now I hate her and I'm most likely going to run away once my phone hits 100, it's been fun but not enough for me to stay here.