I have dark thoughts

Sometimes I just want to beat a woman. Slap one as hard I could and take her to the ground with full brute force, man handle her if you will, .Where I press my thumbs in her eyes till they bleed and then choke her while i bash her head on the floor till her skull cracks open. It's a hate filled fantasy that has never happened. Just the rush I get from just thinking about is...exciting.