Im not normal I know

Im a 18 year old straight woman that has a crazy fetish for womens neck. My ex boyfriend put me on to it and now I'm completely obsessed with it. It started off simple but now it has turned into something completely different than what it is. At first it was just the adams apples and touching and now it has turned into the flexibility of how far back the neck can bed or turn the farther the better. Its come to the point where I search online to see if there are videos of women doing it but I find videos of guys all the time an it bugs me , then I find that there isn't alot of videos of females catering that an I really wish there was. I don't know if its normal or Im just weird. But i wish more females were into it and try it out.