Just Existing

wen I was 7 my parents spilt due to my dad being a controlling violent man who loved nothing but drugs and drinking. So my grandfather was the only thing I had close to a father figure but he died wen I was 9. My heart was broken I truly adored him. Later after he passed my dad raped my sister and didn’t get convicted so he is a free man living in the same town as me. He is the thing I fear the most in this world and always will be. Im now 16 and after years of being numb and brushing everything off the pain has finally Caught up with me. But the thing that hurts the most is that nobody has noticed.