Me...?

I've been really self-conscious recently, so I looked at videos from my old imaginary YouTube channel. Never published the videos, just made them for fun. I looked at myself then, and said, "Huh, I was pretty." Then I thought about it. All that changed it that I don't smile as much, and I got a haircut. I'm not as happy anymore, and that completely changed how I viewed myself. I want to fix that.