Not agreeing but I get it

I really get why men kill their entire family including children.....they know that they were a burden to them and do not want their children to be a burden to others in their absence. I know that my children will be a burden to someone when I die. I don’t want to put them in the foster system and risk them getting separated. I come from a poor family and no close members or friends can afford to take 3 children in their home. I wish I could find a wealthy, loving nonabusive family that would take mine. I hate life. I hate life.