Secret? Until when?

This is my secret since...

When I was 6-7 years old, I and my sister lived with our father because my mother is working abroad. It was totally fine at first ..

One day, my father and his friends had a party in our house. As expected, they are really drunk and wasted.

As I remembered that time, we are already sleeping by 7:30 pm.

Suddenly, I was awake by a strange movement.

A strange touch from my legs, knees and the worst part my vagina. I felt that he was attempting to enter his finger into my vagina. Kissing my legs down to my foot.

I was about to scream but he whispered.

" I will kill your father if you'll do that "

I really don't have a choice.

Only I have is to cry silently.

Until he walked away and shut the door.

He kept doing that thing if they had a party in our house.

But one thing for sure, he didn't insert his penis into my vagina.

Until the day he disappeared but I don't have any courage to tell that to my father.

What happened to me after that?

By the early age, my sexual intuition is active. I always looking those feelings that the guy did to me.

For me to feel that, I always put a toy into my clitoris and knew how to masturbate when I was elementary until now and lose my virginity when I was high school.