I don't mean to trigger anyone I promise if it does please avoid this this is to just share my feelings!!
So I have been getting signs saying I might have social anxiety since I am always afraid of being judged, being perfect means no judgement, and I always feel insecure
I also think I have depression since I have wanted to kill myself a couple times or cut myself but I always manage to restrain myself, I really do think if I wasn't born everyone would be happy
I don't want to self diagnose myself either but I also don't know how to ask a professional for help or ask a doctor to professionally diagnose me, do I just ask for them to check if I do or something??