Strange Thoughts

Due to COVID cases continuing to surge here in the US, quarantine has been long and for me who doesn't have much to do at home but clean, cook, draw and be on my phone..its quite the drag. Then there's the fact I'm stuck with my family, who can be kinda torturous.

I've had thoughts like these before but being stuck here just makes them more recent. I have moments where i doze off in my head picturing scenarios of murder and other things that are so disgusting and taboo towards the people of my family that just make me feel ill. I could be having a good time only for such a thought to pop up and throw my mood off and I honestly don't know what to do. I want these thoughts to stop they make me feel nasty with myself.