Where should I start?

I AM NOT SURE WHERE TO START WITH THIS.

I GUESS.

A FEW YEARS AGO I MET THIS GUY. INSTANTLY I FELT LIKE I HAD BEEN STRUCK BY LIGHTING. IVE READ ABOUT THAT. KINDA COOL. IT WAS A NO STRINGS THING. ON BOTH SIDES. ITS WHAT WE BOTH WANTED. YET, THE MORE HE TALKED ABOUT HIS LIFE, THE MORE ATTATCHED I GOT. DID I WONDER THEN IF HE ASKED ME ABOUT MY PAST? NO.

I CAN REMEBER THE 3 TIMES I KNEW I WAS IN TROUBLE. VIVIDLY. EACH TIME. I SHOULD HAVE CUT ALL TIES. LIKE A MOTHER FUCKING STEP LADDER. I HAD 3 WSRNINGS, EACH DEEPER THEN THE OTHERS. I SHOULD HAVE CUT ALL TIES THEN. WHY THE HELL DIDNT I? NOW MY BRAINS FUCKED, HIGH ON ITS OWN CHEMICALS AND NOT THINKING RIGHT.