PTSD sometimes I sit alone at nightall up in my thoughtswondering what’s gonna happen nextthe decision i make nexthow’s that gonna impact my lifethis shitjust forming in my brainlike lost cells swarming in a rough ocean stormremember when jesus walked on wateri wanna do thati picture it sometimesholding his handwalking on waterawesomeimmaculatenever doubt what u believe inany doubt u haves not from the goodthe evil swarms u with temptation when they know ur growing stronger in faithbc they wanna try their best to break u awaybut when god sets u to a test and u pass it subconsciously that’s when u knowthey can’t touch youthey can’t now all that evil runs awaybecause they sense something unusual to thema faithful servant of our Heavenly Fatheramen to thatrighti love youyou have kept me alivewithout ui wouldn’t be hereI’ll never give up on uNo matter how bad it getseverythinghappens for a reasonevery little aspect and impact on ur life to the person sitting right next to u on the bus as ur reading thisor the person across the coffee shop that you silently sit at to drink ur coffee in peaceor the mean stubborn neighbor you always wave to but the looks u get back are grim like Scrooge perhapssomething made them that waysomething made them that waythink about that for a secondEveryone fails to realize sometimesthat the people you judge for being different and having mental or physical issuesit’s harder for them then you , trust medon’t let go of themhelp themno matter how bad it getsbe the person to help them when they are creating chaos in their livestheir brains are mentally destructing as they try and solve the problem themselvesdon’t leave when it gets too much for u, stay because that’s what Jesus would do do u wanna be like everyone elseor do u wanna be like Jesusask yourself thatthink about thatlet it settle insomeone could’ve hurt themsomeone could’ve taught them the wrong wayeven genetics have a big role in iteveryone yes can changebut some have it harder worse and some it is harder to fight those battlessympathize but don’t empathize for it’s impossible to empathize when you haven’t experienced the pain they endurethe situational factors that make them the person you resent to be aroundchange your perspectivechange it nowbecause everyone can changeand yesthey do need to figure some on their ownand that’s when ur not with themthe time they have to think and growbut don’t leave them in the dust because it became overwhelming because Jesus doesn’t leave us when we do wrongwhen we panicwhen we royally mess upnevernot once forgive but don’t forgetdon’t ever let someone walk all over ubut be the shoulder to cry onthere’s definitely a differencewhether you’ve learned how to manage that or noteveryone is unique and impacting at least one person in their lifetimefor better always betternever worsebecause in lifeyou’re either taught a lesson from something you perceive as a bad experience or a good thing to grow in ur lifeeither way it changes ufor the better think more of the realitydon’t let the anxiety or the anger or the fear or the ptsdAnsley