The sounds of her doing the dishes, the sounds of the little girl running around the house, and the horrible little kid videos on YouTube...never sounded so sweet and having never hurt so badly... I'm so close to the edge I can't take it. God I just want this miserable life to end.. I can do it... but won't I just hurt my family as much as I hurt now? What a cruel, ugly, and repulsive world we have made for ourselves...

The sounds of her doing the dishes, the sounds of the little girl running around the house, and the horrible little kid videos on YouTube...never sounded so sweet and having never hurt so badly... I'm so close to the edge I can't take it. God I just want this miserable life to end.. I can do it... but won't I just hurt my family as much as I hurt now? What a cruel, ugly, and repulsive world we have made for ourselves...

Agreed, and the only making me holding on. Is the dream of one day, going fishing in the morning with that woman. Saying weird shit, picking up a few mushrooms on our way back, hearing the kid laughing, talking of the next project we feel like doing. Spending all day cuddling on the couch watching shit in the rainy day. Any of those, will make all those effort worth it.

Agreed, and the only making me holding on. Is the dream of one day, going fishing in the morning with that woman. Saying weird shit, picking up a few mushrooms on our way back, hearing the kid laughing, talking of the next project we feel like doing. Spending all day cuddling on the couch watching shit in the rainy day. Any of those, will make all those effort worth it.