I have been so ungodly upset since the pandemic started. My depression is the worst it has ever been and I don’t know how to cope. I refuse to go to therapy because telling my parents would break their hearts. Now I am suffering and I have no idea what to do. I feel so lost and hurt all the time. I can’t ever muster up the courage to just end it all, but I have no one to talk to. I just bottle in the fact that I am always suffering and mask it with a smile and lots of laughs, but now I feel I am going to snap and I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings because of my own issues.