I don’t know what is happening to me! There is this feeling in my chest that I cannot get rid of and it is really tormenting me.It feels like a void.. like there is a longing emptiness that I cannot fill. I don’t know what this feeling is. I have had similar feelings and things like this but this is different. I tried to think and to come up with reasons for this but the answers are not logical and they scare me. I thought it is because of loneliness or something like that. It is true that I am depressed and it’s true that I am lonely, but I have never had this feeling before... I cannot understand this...All my life I have felt lonely and have been shunned by society, I have always been alone so it’s not like it’s something new, I have been bullied and all that shit and I have never had this kind of feeling where I don’t know what it is, but this feeling is like pit that is wanting to be filled ( I don’t know how to describe it). I have never been in a relationship nor have I ever felt like I wanted to be, in fact I don’t not like love and I am afraid to fall in love because I am scared I’ll get hurt or I will heart the other person with my baggage and they will leave me..it is one of my biggest fears. I know I’m not good enough for anyone and will probably never be and I have even accepted that, but this feeling is make me feel so weird and different and it’s making me sick! I have already decided that love is a losing game for me even if I have a chance I know it will be taken away from me soon, that is what has always happened. I look at my friends with their boyfriends and they are happy and are comforted and are being loved. I don’t get jealous but I sometimes catch myself thinking that it would be nice to have some like that, someone to go to when I wanna feel like running away but I cannot, or someone who would comfort me when my insecurities get the better of me, or someone who will always be there for me...but then I immediately snap out of it. Honestly I am still to young for all this “love” bullshit but I just think like there is something missing, like that which is making me feel like this but I don’t know... CAN ANYONE LET ME KNOW WHAT THIS FEELING IS!? PLEASE!? AND HOW TO GET RID OF IT?!! I would really appreciate it if someone could explain this feeling to me. At least I will be at ease know what it is and how I can stop feeling like this. Well thank you for reading this..