Ive been a third party in someone's relationship for 2 years and my soul is breaking apart. I knew he was in a relationship and i know that it was wrong of me for letting this continue. I've never really encounter a good relationship and he treats me well, so i didnt really want to let go of this man. But I know he wouldnt break off with the other person because he explains that the other person has done so much sacrifices for him during his downfalls. He owes this person his life and he can never picture himself without her. On the other hand, he told me that no one has ever treated him like he matter like I do. He didnt really open up to the other person like how he open up to me. He was just there for her. It kills me inside when he have to spend some alone time with her because i could picture them kissing and hugging or even making love together. I'm tired and is full of guilt. And i'll still push myself to leave. As of now, he is the only person I have in my life, and it's hard for me to let go. I hated myself and Ive once tried to commit suicide for this. He is a beautiful man and no one would expect him to have an affair. Barely anyone knows about us. I am in his shadow and she is his light because whenever she's around, i no longer exist.