Everything feels really cluttered. My mind feels very cluttered. There's so much to do yet I'm not doing anything to get them done. I tell myself that tomorrow I'll do more but I just end up repeating the same routine everyday. Every night I go to sleep wishing I was dead. I'm too scared to actually kms. I don't think I will either but I also don't want to live anymore. I think I would've been gone a long time ago if it wasn't for this fear and for my family. Everyone's moving on without me and I'm stuck in repeating the same mistakes everyday. I just wish I could disappear for a bit... or forever. Forever sounds better actually. Anyway, I'm writing this here because my sister's a sneaky bitch and she always snoops around and reads or looks at my private stuff which annoys me a LOT. I feel so alone. I don't know what to do.