I keep waking up with a feeling. A Need. I have no idea for what. I am unsatisfied with everything in my life, but I'm not sure what I long for. I fight the urge to say something nasty whenever I'm just talking pleasantly with someone because of this discomfort in my head. I just ache for something. It gnaws at the back of my mind, ravenous for something I can't provide. I just want to fill this need, to make it stop to bring an end to this obnoxious hum in the dark corners of my mind.
What do you want, you stupid body? We have come out LUCKY in this pandemic. We are FORTUNATE. You are pretty well off considering all the misfortune, so what is the big effing problem? This need is like music, too far away to understand, but loud enough it draws attention. I just want to know what it is.