I dont k anymore what to do
....i dont feel like doing anything...but just to sleep
Like i feel so fucked right now...
I hate my life.....dont k y dont ask me ..
I dont k i feel like this pressure building inside my head...and then finally i cant take it anymore....like literally i cant...god ks i tried...
I dont k whats wrg with me like even with a small problem i feel so frustrated that i just wanna end my life.
My heart is getting heavy like i always have a bad feeling like i don't k how to explain...
Like early whn mom was here she used to ask me question ...someday i dont have to wry cauz there wont be any oral ....but then too with each step i take i feeel so heavy hearted i don't k its a kinda pressure inside me ..then i talk to myself like see i dont have any exams atleast no exam nearly 2 3 month and there no oral too then then y r u so tensed relax theres nothing to afraid off..i dont k like have i been the same before or am i noticing it now...i dont k..
And like even if i have some test i couldnt sleeep well i just keep tosing and turning and dream about my test every fucking time....like every fricking time.
Its like i cant control my mind and my body seems like a balloon filled with water...completely out of shape..
I need help....im not gonna make it alone...like u may think like shes so much overreacting....its just a simple topic every one can handle it on the own..
I cant.. i dont k y... i was never this weak ..i cant control my body...i cant i never responds..
Its not just about i sleep long.....there a thing that's gonna take control over me....
I wanna act chilled like i dont care but i cant even pretend like earilier....im not weak i hope..cauz i have fought a lot of stuff in my life ...maybe as i grow i ma losing my faith in myself or maybe I'm not brave enough or maybe i was never brave....what is i was pretending to be brave all these things ....i think im a terrible person..
I want to get back on line but i keep on delay it
As usual ....i want come back like a perfect version me never giving up version dont k when ....i will come back i gonna get back every fucking moment in my life were i wass not brave enough..and kinda ruined that moment i wanna make up to myself...i dont if i can do this or not but i promise one thing i will try ....will try hard..