A proud cheater.....is what I am
I am in a relationship that DOES make me happy, I am sexually satisfied and I feel loved and my partner knows me to the very depths of my being....however, I recently cheated on him with a guy I met in college and immediately bonded with. We arranged to meet at my place, while my partner was away for the night.
Before having sex, I felt guilt in advance, now, the morning after, after having sex for hours on end with my lover, I feel the just tiniest pang of guilt, so insignificant I barely realize it's there.
I instead feel proud and naughty and cannot wait to do it again, although none of this interferes with my love for my partner.
I guess I want the best of both worlds and keep having the affair and I don't feel bad about it AT ALL.
I think it would be fair to conclude, that I am a sick, wanton woman.
I like it.
The most bizarre thing is, I am otherwise a loyal, loving and caring person.