Actually I think I'm ruining my life and the big thing is I know I'm doing that but I can't stop myself to do that I don't know why.The story is my father believes me very much. He did anything for me whatever I needed for study or for fun. In return he just expect me to do something that could make my future bright. But the problem is I have been addicted to learn the stuffs that are not in my career choices. I mean i wanna learn the things not for burden. I want to do them freely like learning something in which you'll never have to face a test and never need to check how you are doing and where you place in the society. The problem is when they take an examination they judge your abilities and show you whether you are enough or not and that's why I saw in my curriculum I'm not doing well but when it comes to extracurricular I'm fantastic and unbeatable but the problem is I can't choose the extracurricular for career. Therefore I always consider myself a criminal who is deceiving my own father and preparing a trap of self enjoyment which can't let me make my future bright. I find myself helpless at every night. I can't tell that to my father.