It breaks my heart that I don't have my little precious soul to care for, to nurture and to love to the sky and beyond. We've been trying to conceive fors more than an year and I've been facing all kind of emotions from my husband, not the good kind. I feel like he's not on the same ride with me and doesn't care that much about this. I tried to convince him to do a sperm check for 8 months and every fucking time he found a reason no to. I am tired of this ride and of him not understanding the urgency of having a child.
To fill some of my inner void, 3 weeks ago we adopted a kitten. She is adorable, cute and rather behaved. But still, she has some games that might be hurtful for others. And she scratched him on 2 occasions. AND NOW he threatens me that we will put her up for adoption if she does this one more time.
I am crying my heart out and really don't know what to do. He is not a bad man and he loves me deeply and I love him the same. But we're facing some communication problems and I don't know how to manage them.