It's always those two.It's always those two.I've known both of them longer than they have even known each other, but it's always those two.I always thought I had the spotlight. I know, a bit reckless. As greedy as it is, the WANTED attention felt nice. It felt nice to be loved, appreciated, with many people to look after you, for you to look after them.But when you slowly start falling apart with all of them, who is there to help you now? Who is there to shine in the spotlight with you?I've known them for years, I've introduced them to each other. It's selfish, I know. Trying to grab all the attention I can get.I'm so selfish.Why can't I just let them be happy?But it's always been them.Just the two acting, "Oh, Look at us! We're happy-go-lucky with each other!".They have issues of their own, why can't I let them be happy for once in their life? Why do I have to ruin everything for the people around me?Why can't I just accept that I'll never have what they have?Why can't I accept that I'm not a good enough friend?They go to each other first. They always pick each other.They always say Hi to each other.They always look at each other with love that could be platonic or romantic.Why can't I have what they have?I know why.It's because I'm too greedy. I'm too selfish, too complicated, too sensitive-I'm just jealous.But why did they just leave me in the dust?I'm always forgotten, aren't I?My friend's have each other, who else do I have? My parents have each other, my two brother's have each other, who do I have?It's all about how good they are together, how buddy buddy they are together, how lovey dovey they are together.I truly have no one, don't I?This is what I deserve.For being so imperfect, so forgettable.Some toy people would enjoy playing with at first, then get bored of and thrown away like the rest of them.Funny how our trio just became a duo over a course of days....What am I even saying?I'm selfish, jealous, greedy.I deserve this, I deserve it.Everything I do is for them, right? I walk so they can run, Right? Or am I just saying that to myself so I can feel better?...I'm just a greedy bitch of a teenage girl who thinks the world revolves around her. Who complains when she doesn't get what she wants.I'm not special, who said I was special? Just because there's a gazillion in one chance of me being born, who said I was special?...I'm okay. Just smile and wave, walk on.Just smile when you see them love each other endlessly.Just smile, because they're happy. They're happy so you should be happy too.It's okay.For as long as they love each other, I'll be forgotten, but that's okay, cause they are worth more than I ever was.Everything I do will be for them, anything to make sure they continue to love, to have something I know I will never have.A trio turned duo.