i decided to write poems about everything thats happened to me. ive not told anyone a lot of what has happened to me so i am posting anonymously. this is chapter one and is completely true.
My luck in life
I don’t remember when it started,
But my heart can feel how hard it is.
A family who’s meant to love each other,
I thought the one who loved me most was my brother.
Confused and manipulated,
I was Being controlled and dictated.
Young and naive, I saw nothing wrong
Up in his room hed play a film or a song,
While I did what he wanted again and again
As I got older I knew it needed to end
A few years with out contact my life was troubled,
I moved in with dad, no protective bubble.
My brother came to visit late one night,
He crawled in my bed and gave me a fright,
Afraid and In shock I whispered to him
Get out of my bed before I scream what you did.
The next day I was brave and made a decision
I was going to tell dad and send him to prison.
Little did I know I would be so let down
Because when I told my dad all he did was frown,
He said I must be imagining things his son wouldn't do that
So I cried and begged, and we spoke as we sat,
But still I gave up and just thought that was that.
Only 15 and already been through so much,
Raped by my brother and another wasn’t enough?
I got pregnant at 14 by the man who had raped me,
And I begged and I begged for someone to save me.
But it was in my luck that no one would come
And who knew that my struggles had just begun.
Growing up in a home with a violent mum,
Now 15 years old with a son. So overwhelmed I went on the run.
I still can't believe there's more to come.