I was really young when I started to get physically and emotionally abused, both by my sister and brother. Whenever I tried to defend myself from the emotional abuse, they'd say, "Do you want me to punch the fuck out of you?" Now, from what I remembered I was atleast 5 or 4 when I got abused and I'm now 12, the youngest in the family. I started to get used to the emotional pain and inflicted it onto myself instead of them doing it to me. I saved my pent up anger for all my years and I couldn't contain any more. I never knew I had severe depression at the age of 4, I still have it now. I would cry randomly, get constipation on most of the days, even if I got asked out, I would feel nothing. It would get so bad that I would get migraines, body pains, even my legs couldn't function. The physical and emotional abuse wasn't enough for them. I had got sexually abused only once. I was even told to kill myself and I had tried around 3 times. At 8 years old I wrapped a scarf around my neck, hoping it would work but it didn't work. I had gotten so mad it drove me mad. A few days ago, I had tried to strangle my mother, who neglected the abuse I was given and the years of pain. I even started laughing at her pain. My older sister told my mother to send me to a mental hospital because I'm a psycho and my brother said to my mother I'm doing this for attention. I'm currently alone at home and have random medications in my hand. I'm finally going to kill myself some day.