I regret so much i didnt mean to. When i was little my sister and i used to do it we were neglected half the time. Our mother would go to work and leave us alone our father didn’t know because if he did my mother and father would fight again. I think I knew what me and my sister was doing was bad but I couldn’t stop I didn’t tell my mother because I was scared. I was exposed to sex at a pretty young age I remember going to this house in maybe 1st grade I wondered around and saw a book inside were s*x scenes I could stop reading because I had this weird feeling, and in 3rd grade my friend showed me p**n once again I felt this strange feeling and she felt it too. I stopped when I was in 5 grade. My dad kicked my mother and my siblings out of the house and we lived with this old man he actually made me feel uncomfortable. My dad told me not to let someone touch you and I feel guilty what is I hurt my sister we don’t talk about it in fact we act like nothing happened how does she feel. Now, currently I want to hurt myself I think I deserve to die it my fault isn’t it the world would be a better place without me. But I really want to reach out to a counselor.