All i seem to do right since i was a child was hide and stay out of the way when my feelings are starting to show so im not a burden for everyone around me. Hiding all the time and not telling people how I really feel because they just get mad is wearing me down. I have contemplated taking my life a lot the last few days and today seems to be the worst and I am out of ideas to push this depression away again.....

All i seem to do right since i was a child was hide and stay out of the way when my feelings are starting to show so im not a burden for everyone around me. Hiding all the time and not telling people how I really feel because they just get mad is wearing me down. I have contemplated taking my life a lot the last few days and today seems to be the worst and I am out of ideas to push this depression away again..... 

I can really relate to the part where you said that whenever you tell people you feel sad they get mad. My mum paid for a hair treatment for me, to make me feel happier because she noticed I was feeling down. I still wasn’t happy and she was so mad and annoyed and she called me a narcissist and I just feel like a nuisance around everyone

I can really relate to the part where you said that whenever you tell people you feel sad they get mad. My mum paid for a hair treatment for me, to make me feel happier because she noticed I was feeling down. I still wasn’t happy and she was so mad and annoyed and she called me a narcissist and I just feel like a nuisance around everyone