am i good enough?

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The first boyfriend I had, we dated on and off for a year, in the end, he chooses the other girl over me. Three years later I finally open up to boy #2 everything is going great till his ex shows back up and he chooses her over me. is it me? what am I doing wrong? why am I always #2? how do I become #1?

I don't know what more I can do, I don't know what I am doing wrong, but I know I'm not their #1. Now here I am scared to open up to anyone because every time I do and it feels too good to be true they walk away. I think this is why I am scared of commitment, why when a guy is treating me right I push them away. I immediately shut down. because I am not good enough! This is what the guys in my life have taught me