My parent used to be mean when teaching me math. But after they found out I cut, and they stopped being strict. Now, I feel like I'm behind in math, and it's all because I cut.
I don't feel comfortable with being at peace with my parent.
(I am Asian, so I should expect my parent to be strict.)
It's just all so annoying. Now I'm going to be behind in class all because of me cutting. I FUCKING CUT, AND NOW I'M NOT LEARNING THE THINGS I'M SUPPOSED TO BE LEARNING, AND THIS ACTION IS IRREVERSIBLE. JUST BECAUSE I CUT, I'M NOT GOING TO EXCEL AT ANYTHING. IT'S ANNOYING.
I just want to be smarter than I am now.
My parent has been blaming themselves for this, but they shouldn't.
there are definitely millions or even billions of kids with parents that are strict, and they're doing just fine.
I ruined my own stupid life by cutting.
It wasn't even going to be a successful life in the first place, and now it's going to become even worse.
IT'S FUCKING ANNOYING.