Im suppost to hang out with my friend today. I really dont want to. Im so anxious I want to cry... well , I am. I try to get out of soccer and other activities but my mom says its good for me and she doesnt want me to get depressed again doing nothing. Hanging out with people isnt helping. Im fidgeting, shaking, almost a panic attack. I just dont want to. I want to be alone in my room, watching tv alone without people saying thats all i do. Im so tired lately. No matter how much I sleep. Ive had issues with self harming in the past and go to therepy but she just tells me to breath. But it doesnt prevent me from hanging out with others. It doesnt help me with the constant voice in the back of my head telling me to die. the only thing that gets rid of it is destractions. I need help.