Recently, people have been calling me a ghoster since I've become the person they don't want me to be.
I used to be cheerful and talkative. I always got a story to tell. I was their so called "extrovert" back then.
but I dunno why I'm feeling so.. tired of all of it.
I'm tired of being the clown of everyone and someone who always smiling infront of everyone just to cheer them up.
I was the one who always asked how was their day, how was their health or if they're feeling down. I was there.
And now, I hate to admit it. but, I don't wanna talk to anyone rn.
I just want to shut them all out.
I don't want anyone to bother looking for me or asking..
I want them to treat me like I'm sort of a ghost. because.. no one is there for me when I needed someone to understand me..
But still I won't do their suggestions of me committed to someone just because I need someone to love and understand me when I know for sure that someone will end up getting tired of me. haha
so... any advice?