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Ashamed

I’ve been thinking a lot about my past recently and different mistakes I’ve made. And looking back, I think that I’ve been guilty of making women feel uncomfortable in different social situations. Mostly trying to dance with girls at parties and getting turned down immediately or I just get too lost in my people watching. I’ve never sexual assaulted someone or tried to force myself on someone. I know how to take a no. But the more I think about these situations, the more guilty I feel. These aren’t things I thought about in the moment as creepy but looking back I feel like women may have been made uncomfortable by me in these situations. Without having made those realizations in those moments I obviously have no opportunities to apologize for my behavior, so now the guilt is killing me. How do I get over this guilt that I feel? I know the easy answer is just try harder to be better in those moments but that honestly just doesn’t feel like enough.